Friday, January 29, 2010

chaosscizzors

well i guess i should follow suit and make my own introduction.

my name is chaos, that's all you really need to know. i don't like you and i don't even know who is reading this right now. don't get me wrong, i'm not a bad guy, but if i can make you hate me then it's just going to make me smile and laugh. all my life people treated me like shit. i used to be a pretty nice guy but after a while you see it's really not worth it. you people and your society have left me as a bitter cynic, but there's an upside to that. i've spent my entire life on the fringes of society so i don't share you ideals, the term "taboo" means nothing to me. nothing is sacred and nothing is evil in my eyes.

so as a result i guess it's no surprise that i took to pedophilia so easily. at first i'll admit that i did cave to society's whims and freak out pretty badly about it. i was depressed and i didn't have the slightest idea what to do about it. eventually i met some like minded people and it put things in perspective. the internet is such a useful resource; i've had the opportunity to speak to all types of pedophiles, including the child porn hoarding pedophile that you all worry is going to abduct your child and leave them buried in the woods somewhere (which honestly isn't the case most of the time, they just want their fix and i can't really blame them).

the whole ordeal sparked an interest in psychology within my mind and i began (and still am) taking classes on the subject. it became obvious, almost immediately, that even most "experts" know slim to nil about the "disorder" (a term i use loosely when referring to paraphilias) that is pedophilia. just the social stigma of pedophilia can bend the minds of even the most educated individuals. i don't blame them, in fact i think they have a very, very, very good reason to be worried about the pedophile down the street because i live it everyday and i speak to people who live it everyday. i now understand pedophilia on a level i never thought was possible and i have to say, it can be scary sometimes when you're dealing with someone that has a weak will. for some the attraction to children can be incredibly overwhelming, but for the most part we all understand the difference between right and wrong and adhere to those standards adamantly. it's this ability to control our primal urges that separates us all from the beasts, something that you and me share in common.

in later posts i'll probably talk about other paraphilias and fetishes. they are quite interesting, they make no sense and they're damn near impossible to classify as a true disorder unless the individual in question is dangerous. in a sense i'm mentally ill, and yet at the same time i am perfectly sane. don't try to understand it, recognize it, respect it, and i will treat you with the same quality of dignity that you have shown me.

peace and love,
your friendly neighborhood pedo

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